Posts tagged “running

Kind of being a quitter. Not really.

pink flowers (This picture has nothing to do with anything, I just love taking pictures of flowers… and then having you tell me how I’m such a great photographer. :))

I really wanted to blog about job related stuff that happened yesterday but… I’m superstitious. Well, I don’t know if this is a superstition but essentially, I get nervous when it comes to talking about certain things because I’m worried they won’t end up happening after all. It’s happened before and it sucks. So, until I sign a contract, mum’s the word. That said, I’m really happy and hoping it all goes according to plan. I should find out in 2 weeks (ack!) or so. Oh and I didn’t quit, this is unrelated to the title of this blog post!

Meanwhile, I DID decide to quit Bridge to 10K. As I said before, I don’t think the run-walk intervals combination was walking for me anymore… once I start walking, I find it hard to start running again. So for now I’m going to set time goals (unless you all think I should set distance goals instead?) and increase the times each week. Yesterday I wanted to run 40 minutes without stopping but my iPhone kept losing GPS signal/an app was giving me a hard time (have I mentioned how much I want a Garmin lately??) so I had to stop twice to fix it. But I ended up running a total of 45 minutes (3.55 miles), so I figure that’s a start. Oh and if you’re wondering… the run went better than the last one, but it wasn’t great at first. At the beginning I was feeling frustrated and started thinking how much I suck at this but then I started thinking “hey, at least I’m doing it!” And eventually it got easier and the time flew by. Anyway, I’m thinking I’ll finish out the week with 45 minute runs and then next week increase it to 50 minutes. I’m not anywhere near the speed or distance I want to be at but I guess it takes time. That said, I feel like I’m getting slower every day!

In related news, it looks like I won’t be doing that 5k after all (see, I’m apparently a quitter). I’ve been asked to work that day and it’s a good opportunity for me, plus I could really use the money (Garmin money!) so I think I’m going to go ahead and back out of the 5k. I’m bummed because I was really excited about it, but there will be other 5ks. Unfortunately they won’t give me a refund so if anyone wants to take my place, maybe we can try to sign my info over to you? Let me know if you’re interested!


One day I’ll be a runner…

One day I’d like to be a runner. I’ll strap on my Garmin, do an “easy” 3 mile run, and come back and rave about how awesome my 8 minute miles were.*

Sigh. I wish. As it is, yesterday’s run made me realize how much I am NOT a runner. I can’t even do Bridge to 10K properly. Yesterday’s run marked 2 days in this program that I wasn’t able to properly complete… for some reason day 3 of each week has been a killer. I don’t understand, I did Couch to 5K without any problems, I’m able to run 35 minutes plus without stopping, but the last running interval of B210K (after only 30 minute of running) is beating me down.

I kind of think part of my problem is the walking intervals. I’m getting pretty good about talking myself into running farther, even when that means 13 minutes of “okay run until that bridge… okay now run until that tree, no not the little tree, the big tree… okay now run until that corner…” But once I stop running, even for that 1 minute interval, it’s hard to start up again. And yesterday I was struggling so much that I kept walking for longer than the minute, which made it THAT much harder to start running again.

Then again, a lot of it was me just struggling yesterday in general. I felt parched 10 minutes into it, even though I was pretty well hydrated before the run. I felt like I couldn’t breathe properly, that I was constantly gasping for breath, even though at times I forced myself to run so slow it felt like I could’ve walked faster. Plus, and I don’t know if this is a bit TMI, but I had horrible acid reflux the whole time. I think that’s what it was anyway. (PS, does anyone else ever suffer from this while running?) It felt like a huge effort to keep running with all that going on. I felt like I wasn’t meant for this, that I suck at running, that I’m never going to be good at it so why do I bother?

I’m gonna keep chugging along though. Maybe I’ll get better, maybe I’m just not meant to run more than 3 miles, maybe I’ll find that runner’s high and fall in love with running. Either way, I’m stubborn enough to not quit just yet. Right now I’m trying to focus on ways to keep me motivated: dreaming about buying my Garmin, running that upcoming 5K, and anything else that keeps me lacing up those sneakers, day after day (minus rest days, of course). Perhaps this shirt, which totally suits me, is necessary:


Someone pass me a spoon?

*I hope no one takes offense to this sentence. I’m not being snarky at all. I’m really just completely jealous of those of you who fit this description. Promise.

Running update…

First of all, I finally got my official time from my first 5K the other day: I came in 82nd place, out of 214 runners, in 34 minutes, 29 seconds. To which I say, meh. I mean, great that I made my goal time (I wanted under 35 minutes) but I’ve run 3.11 miles in 34 minutes flat before. I should’ve run a bit faster.

Runner-2They sent me this pic, which is the only non-blurry pic of me running. Not the most flattering tho. I think it might be time for a new sports bra?

I guess I have an opportunity to beat my time though, as yesterday I finally signed up for this:

hfrJune 4th, which is only 3 weeks away. Whoa.

I kind of felt the need to register for a 5K because I’ve been feeling really unmotivated lately. I’m still working on Bridge to 10K but today is only week 2 day 3… last week I only ran 2 days. I used to run 4 times a week! I think it’s a combination of it getting really hot (and it’s only going to get worse, I know) and my being so drained from the craziness that is the last few weeks of school. I’ve been thinking of getting a handheld water bottle to start taking on my runs… think that’s okay? Any recommendations?

Meanwhile, I’m about to cave and buy my Garmin, I’m getting so annoyed with running with my iPhone. I’m having to literally force myself to not buy it, as I know I’ll be getting an amazon gift card within the next 2 weeks and that can go towards my purchase. It’s just that lately my apps on my iPhone aren’t recording my distance/pace correctly… and this is information I’d like to KNOW. The other day on my run I thought I was flying cuz according to my phone, I was running 8 minute miles… which I NEVER do. I get home and realize that both my apps lied to me and I have no idea what distance I’ve been running at… one said 3.3 miles (including warmup and cooldown, I KNOW I did more than that) and the other said 5 miles (I WISH I could run 5 miles in 45 minutes). Sigh.

One day you will be mine, my pretty, one day… Maybe… I’m still debating between the 610 and the 310… Hmmm.

I will say that the great news is that I am finally running without pain, again. My ankle is finally better, my knee woes are gone (although sometimes I think my IT bands around my knees feel a bit tight, but that usually passes) and I’m feeling pretty good when I run lately. I did have to purchase some Body Glide over the weekend cuz I was starting to experience some um.. chafing. Yes, my thighs are trying to tell me I need to quit eating all the yummy foods that I’ve been overindulging in lately – ice cream, brownies, cookies, etc. The day after work is over I’m going to work on eating healthy again.. I’d say I’d start now but the end of the school year = lots of treats that I just can’t say no to.

And finally, I leave you with this shirt that I found yesterday, thanks to a link from The Hungry Runner Girl (love her!):

your pace or mine Cracks me up every time I see it!

If I’m wrong for wanting that shirt, I don’t want to be right. 🙂

What’s next?

So, after successfully completing my first 5k, you may be wondering… what next? Quite a few things actually.

Step number 1: Start Bridge to 10K. I meant to start yesterday but it was crazy windy and I just wasn’t in the mood to do battle, plus I was still acting like I deserve a rest day after my victory on Sunday. I plan on starting it today, even if the wind is crazy.


I don’t know when I’ll be ready to do a 10K.. the program is only 6 weeks but I don’t think I would want to do a 10K in the middle of summer. I might… die, it being Texas and all. Maybe I can aim to run a 10K by October. In the meantime I am definitely up for…

Step number 2: Sign up for another 5k. Of course. Before even running my first one, my friend and I were talking about running a second. I kept having to say “whoa, let me see if I can even finish one before I start planning for another.” Now that I’ve completed one, I don’t have that excuse anymore. I just need to decide which one I want to do. I have 3 choices so far:

  • Astros Race for the Pennant, May 30, 2011: This race begins at and ends in Minute Maid Park, and my brother has already said that if I sign up for it, he’ll do it too since he’ll be in town. My friend really wants to race it also. However. I have read online that the course is rather hilly and it’s not a very interesting course – not very scenic. So I’m not sure if I want to do this one.
  • Houston Heights Fun Run, June 4, 2011: I keep seeing this billed as a very fun, scenic race (although also very fast) amongst trees, which = shade. Which is very important since this is Texas and it’s rather hot here. This is the run I think I really want to do.
  • Women’s Texas Lavender 5K and 10K, June 4, 2011. I found this today and I think I may have been sold by two things: “water stops manned by handsome male servants” and that after the race, there is “breakfast with champagne or mimosas, great music, free massages…” Doesn’t that sound pretty much awesome? Only thing is this one is about a 3 and a half hour drive, we’d have to pay for a hotel plus gas ain’t cheap… it’ll end up being rather costly.

Decisions, decisions.

Step number 3: Get back on track with eating healthy. I quit counting calories a few weeks ago and as soon as I did that, I quit eating properly. Looking at the race pictures that I didn’t publish yesterday made me realize how much more work I have to do to get in the shape I’d like. Eating 2 Kit Kat bars, plus 2 pieces of chocolate cake and ice cream, on top of everything else on Sunday is a bit overkill. I just need to learn to restrain myself from bingeing on foods while still allowing myself to indulge every once in a while. I’m hoping I don’t have to go back to counting calories to do that, it’s no fun.

So that’s what I’m working on. Man that was really boring. Sorry. Having my goals spelled out for me kinda helps to force me to actually stick to them. Hmmm. Maybe I should blog about my budget or something next, heaven knows I need help there!

Books, refunds and journals, oh my!

Oh wow. Yesterday was quite the day. One of those days when you see a bunch of these in the break room:

photo 3

and decide that instead of resisting, you’ve definitely earned two. At least. Along with some oreo cake that was particularly delicious. In my defense, those cupcakes were ridiculously small… a person shouldn’t have to eat just one.

My students are just… pretty much acting like school is over. Unfortunately for them (and me), we still have a good 4 and a half weeks left of school. And I’m apparently supposed to still be teaching them up until their graduation. I’m not entirely sure how I’m going to survive.

Anyway, even though they didn’t deserve it, after work I went to buy them the latest Mo Willems book that came out yesterday. We are obsessed with Mo Willems in my classroom. Obsessed. To the point that my classroom library, which is organized by genre, has a book bucket specifically for him:

mo willems book bucketAnd yes, I did pay for every single one of those books. Plus there are more not pictured.  Now you know why I’m always broke, eh?

Oh and if you’ve never heard of Mo Willems, let me tell you, you are missing out. And even if you don’t have kids or students like I do, you should still check out his books one day… they are freaking hilarious. The pigeon series is great but our favorites are Elephant & Piggie. They have us cracking up. That said, his latest book:

hooray for amanda and her alligator

Not really his best work… it wasn’t as funny as his other books. I’m interested to see what my kids think, they have the same sense of humor as I do and at the end of each chapter I just kind of had a “huh, okay” moment, not a laugh or even really a chuckle. I think that’s how they might react too. I guess we’ll see.

Oh and remember how my Cary Brothers concert got canceled and Ticketmaster was thinking it wasn’t so they weren’t going to refund me? Yeah I got an email last night.. “We just learned that your upcoming event has been canceled…” this is what I’ve been trying to tell you! At least I get my money back….

Finally, continuing with my wannabe running status.. I bought a running journal which came in the mail yesterday:

running journal

I know I log all my miles on dailymile (add me there if you want, I love new friends) but I like having things written out, I’m visual like that. And it’s fun going back to fill in my miles from the beginning and watching how far I’ve come. Yay me! 🙂

More indecisiveness… plus overindulging galore!

First of all, if you’re new to me and you didn’t realize that my username was indecisiveari… allow me to point it out to you. It’s a VERY fitting name, because not only do I not like making decisions, but once I’ve made a decision I have a tendency to second-guess myself to death. Case in point – my blog title. I’ve only had it for what, a week and a half? Yeah I’m tired of it already. “New adventures”… what am I, a super hero? So I’ve been thinking about it since.. well, ever since I gave myself that blog title and have been trying to come up with a better one. And I think I’ve come up with some. Ready?

  • Running on Wishes
  • Running For My Dreams
  • Running My Dreams
  • Running to Dream

I’m obviously not creative.  I dunno, I like how running can be used two different ways – as in running, like I’ve gotten into running as my hobby, and also running as in fuel… as in, I’m fueled by my wishes, or the wishes of other people. Plus I like the word wishes, it feels optimistic. I don’t know. Maybe I’ve been reading too many running blogs lately… and anyway, this blog will never be a “running” blog.. I’m still waiting to see how long I keep up with running. But since it can mean MORE than running, I kind of think it’s okay?  Some people have been questioned the “wishes” part, we spent a while on twitter trying to brainstorm better words. And now that I think about it, should I be running ON wishes? That seems a bit sad. Dreams is a more hopeful word, running for my dreams seems more powerful but I don’t know that I have many dreams, or so it seems. That’s kinda sad now that I think about it. My main issue with running for my dreams is that it doesn’t fit on twitter… so then there’s running my dreams or running to dream, but does that even make sense?

Anyway, what do you think? If you don’t like it, help me come up with something better?

EDITED TO ADD: How about Chasing Down Hope? How does that sound? Thoughts?

Meanwhile, I was bad this weekend. Shopaholic should really be my username. You see, I went to lululemon and spent a bit more money than I should’ve. I kind of heart that store, the clothes always look so cute and fun, even though the price means I can never afford anything. For some reason that didn’t stop me yesterday and I bought this top, called the cool racerback tank, which I had been coveting online for the last few days:

photo-2 This was post-run so excuse the nastiness that is me.

Which prompted this response from my friend:

Screen shot 2011-04-24 at 3.21.03 PM Win!

I also got a black run speed skirt, which is cute because it has ruffles at the back. I can’t get the pic of the skirt ruffles to show up so you’ll have to take my word for it. I kind of love running in skirts because I tend to believe that my thighs are so big that when I run, shorts tend to bunch. Pulling my shorts down mid-run is not my idea of fun so I stick to my skirts. Call me girly, whatever.

And I was also bad, food-wise. For the last 2 months I had been keeping track of my calories, etc to try to force myself to make better eating habits. For whatever reason I got lazy the last few days, which led to me eating things like this:

bunnyLove how Bay is trying to get in on it. Ears went first, of course.

There may also have been ice cream, Chick-fil-A, lots of Mexican food… um. I apparently have no self-control after being deprived from these yummy foods for the last 3 months… it makes me want to eat everything I haven’t been able to eat all at once. Not good.

photo 1 Marble Slab speaks the truth.

Oh yeah and lastly, I have started stalking the weather forecast for my upcoming 5k (t-minus 7 days, ack!)… earlier it was saying 60% chance of rain and I was freaking out. If it rains my friends can’t come watch (4 month old baby + rain don’t mix), plus I’ve never run in the rain. I couldn’t listen to music, I couldn’t use the Nike+ to tell me how much further I have to go (since I don’t have a Garmin yet).. disaster. And then today I checked it and now it says this:

photo 2 Much better.

Here’s hoping the rain chances go down even more. I know Texas needs rain, but I’d rather it not rain on the day of my very first 5k. Please and thank you.

Couch to 5K graduate!

Well, I’ve finally done it. I am officially a C25K graduate!

c25kgradWhere’s my medal dangit??

It feels like just yesterday that I was starting out with the program. Just yesterday that I could barely survive the 60 seconds of jogging. And now I am able to run 30 minutes at a time… who would have ever thought?

Actually, to tell the truth, I’m not just running 30 minutes at a time. For the last week or so I’ve been ignoring my C25K app when it tells me my running time is over and I’ve continued running… on Monday I was able to finally reach 3.1 miles in 34 minutes, meaning that running my first 5K is completely possible. Quite the relief, I’m sure you understand. Although yesterday I ran 3.1 miles in about 38 minutes so… apparently I’m getting slower?

Now the question that remains is… what next? I think I do well with directions and boundaries… having a set 9 week schedule helped keep me on track and pushed me to continue to stay with running longer than I ever have in the past. I first thought I could work on the Bridge to 10K program, as it seems to flow right from the 5K program… but the very first workout consists of 10 minute run intervals. I feel like now that I’m able to finally run 30 minutes at a time, going back down to shorter intervals seems like a step back. Am I wrong for thinking that? My other option is One Hour Runner, which progressively gets you running longer times.. but the first 3 weeks are all 30 minute runs, which is already getting old from C25K, especially since I’ve been running a bit longer than that anyway.

So I don’t know what program I’m going to do next… I’m open to suggestions. For now, I have less than a week and a half until my first 5k (eek!) so I’m going to spend that time trying to run at least that distance, if not more. (There’s still time to donate to my fundraising btw… just in case you were worried about that.)

Actually, for now I’m going to relax because today is my rest day and my ankle needs to recover. I’m going to bask in the knowledge that I completed the C25K program. And I’m going to let you all tell me how awesome I am for finishing.. or just how awesome I am in general. 🙂