Kind of being a quitter. Not really.

pink flowers (This picture has nothing to do with anything, I just love taking pictures of flowers… and then having you tell me how I’m such a great photographer. :))

I really wanted to blog about job related stuff that happened yesterday but… I’m superstitious. Well, I don’t know if this is a superstition but essentially, I get nervous when it comes to talking about certain things because I’m worried they won’t end up happening after all. It’s happened before and it sucks. So, until I sign a contract, mum’s the word. That said, I’m really happy and hoping it all goes according to plan. I should find out in 2 weeks (ack!) or so. Oh and I didn’t quit, this is unrelated to the title of this blog post!

Meanwhile, I DID decide to quit Bridge to 10K. As I said before, I don’t think the run-walk intervals combination was walking for me anymore… once I start walking, I find it hard to start running again. So for now I’m going to set time goals (unless you all think I should set distance goals instead?) and increase the times each week. Yesterday I wanted to run 40 minutes without stopping but my iPhone kept losing GPS signal/an app was giving me a hard time (have I mentioned how much I want a Garmin lately??) so I had to stop twice to fix it. But I ended up running a total of 45 minutes (3.55 miles), so I figure that’s a start. Oh and if you’re wondering… the run went better than the last one, but it wasn’t great at first. At the beginning I was feeling frustrated and started thinking how much I suck at this but then I started thinking “hey, at least I’m doing it!” And eventually it got easier and the time flew by. Anyway, I’m thinking I’ll finish out the week with 45 minute runs and then next week increase it to 50 minutes. I’m not anywhere near the speed or distance I want to be at but I guess it takes time. That said, I feel like I’m getting slower every day!

In related news, it looks like I won’t be doing that 5k after all (see, I’m apparently a quitter). I’ve been asked to work that day and it’s a good opportunity for me, plus I could really use the money (Garmin money!) so I think I’m going to go ahead and back out of the 5k. I’m bummed because I was really excited about it, but there will be other 5ks. Unfortunately they won’t give me a refund so if anyone wants to take my place, maybe we can try to sign my info over to you? Let me know if you’re interested!


One day I’ll be a runner…

One day I’d like to be a runner. I’ll strap on my Garmin, do an “easy” 3 mile run, and come back and rave about how awesome my 8 minute miles were.*

Sigh. I wish. As it is, yesterday’s run made me realize how much I am NOT a runner. I can’t even do Bridge to 10K properly. Yesterday’s run marked 2 days in this program that I wasn’t able to properly complete… for some reason day 3 of each week has been a killer. I don’t understand, I did Couch to 5K without any problems, I’m able to run 35 minutes plus without stopping, but the last running interval of B210K (after only 30 minute of running) is beating me down.

I kind of think part of my problem is the walking intervals. I’m getting pretty good about talking myself into running farther, even when that means 13 minutes of “okay run until that bridge… okay now run until that tree, no not the little tree, the big tree… okay now run until that corner…” But once I stop running, even for that 1 minute interval, it’s hard to start up again. And yesterday I was struggling so much that I kept walking for longer than the minute, which made it THAT much harder to start running again.

Then again, a lot of it was me just struggling yesterday in general. I felt parched 10 minutes into it, even though I was pretty well hydrated before the run. I felt like I couldn’t breathe properly, that I was constantly gasping for breath, even though at times I forced myself to run so slow it felt like I could’ve walked faster. Plus, and I don’t know if this is a bit TMI, but I had horrible acid reflux the whole time. I think that’s what it was anyway. (PS, does anyone else ever suffer from this while running?) It felt like a huge effort to keep running with all that going on. I felt like I wasn’t meant for this, that I suck at running, that I’m never going to be good at it so why do I bother?

I’m gonna keep chugging along though. Maybe I’ll get better, maybe I’m just not meant to run more than 3 miles, maybe I’ll find that runner’s high and fall in love with running. Either way, I’m stubborn enough to not quit just yet. Right now I’m trying to focus on ways to keep me motivated: dreaming about buying my Garmin, running that upcoming 5K, and anything else that keeps me lacing up those sneakers, day after day (minus rest days, of course). Perhaps this shirt, which totally suits me, is necessary:


Someone pass me a spoon?

*I hope no one takes offense to this sentence. I’m not being snarky at all. I’m really just completely jealous of those of you who fit this description. Promise.

Running update…

First of all, I finally got my official time from my first 5K the other day: I came in 82nd place, out of 214 runners, in 34 minutes, 29 seconds. To which I say, meh. I mean, great that I made my goal time (I wanted under 35 minutes) but I’ve run 3.11 miles in 34 minutes flat before. I should’ve run a bit faster.

Runner-2They sent me this pic, which is the only non-blurry pic of me running. Not the most flattering tho. I think it might be time for a new sports bra?

I guess I have an opportunity to beat my time though, as yesterday I finally signed up for this:

hfrJune 4th, which is only 3 weeks away. Whoa.

I kind of felt the need to register for a 5K because I’ve been feeling really unmotivated lately. I’m still working on Bridge to 10K but today is only week 2 day 3… last week I only ran 2 days. I used to run 4 times a week! I think it’s a combination of it getting really hot (and it’s only going to get worse, I know) and my being so drained from the craziness that is the last few weeks of school. I’ve been thinking of getting a handheld water bottle to start taking on my runs… think that’s okay? Any recommendations?

Meanwhile, I’m about to cave and buy my Garmin, I’m getting so annoyed with running with my iPhone. I’m having to literally force myself to not buy it, as I know I’ll be getting an amazon gift card within the next 2 weeks and that can go towards my purchase. It’s just that lately my apps on my iPhone aren’t recording my distance/pace correctly… and this is information I’d like to KNOW. The other day on my run I thought I was flying cuz according to my phone, I was running 8 minute miles… which I NEVER do. I get home and realize that both my apps lied to me and I have no idea what distance I’ve been running at… one said 3.3 miles (including warmup and cooldown, I KNOW I did more than that) and the other said 5 miles (I WISH I could run 5 miles in 45 minutes). Sigh.

One day you will be mine, my pretty, one day… Maybe… I’m still debating between the 610 and the 310… Hmmm.

I will say that the great news is that I am finally running without pain, again. My ankle is finally better, my knee woes are gone (although sometimes I think my IT bands around my knees feel a bit tight, but that usually passes) and I’m feeling pretty good when I run lately. I did have to purchase some Body Glide over the weekend cuz I was starting to experience some um.. chafing. Yes, my thighs are trying to tell me I need to quit eating all the yummy foods that I’ve been overindulging in lately – ice cream, brownies, cookies, etc. The day after work is over I’m going to work on eating healthy again.. I’d say I’d start now but the end of the school year = lots of treats that I just can’t say no to.

And finally, I leave you with this shirt that I found yesterday, thanks to a link from The Hungry Runner Girl (love her!):

your pace or mine Cracks me up every time I see it!

If I’m wrong for wanting that shirt, I don’t want to be right. 🙂

What’s next?

So, after successfully completing my first 5k, you may be wondering… what next? Quite a few things actually.

Step number 1: Start Bridge to 10K. I meant to start yesterday but it was crazy windy and I just wasn’t in the mood to do battle, plus I was still acting like I deserve a rest day after my victory on Sunday. I plan on starting it today, even if the wind is crazy.


I don’t know when I’ll be ready to do a 10K.. the program is only 6 weeks but I don’t think I would want to do a 10K in the middle of summer. I might… die, it being Texas and all. Maybe I can aim to run a 10K by October. In the meantime I am definitely up for…

Step number 2: Sign up for another 5k. Of course. Before even running my first one, my friend and I were talking about running a second. I kept having to say “whoa, let me see if I can even finish one before I start planning for another.” Now that I’ve completed one, I don’t have that excuse anymore. I just need to decide which one I want to do. I have 3 choices so far:

  • Astros Race for the Pennant, May 30, 2011: This race begins at and ends in Minute Maid Park, and my brother has already said that if I sign up for it, he’ll do it too since he’ll be in town. My friend really wants to race it also. However. I have read online that the course is rather hilly and it’s not a very interesting course – not very scenic. So I’m not sure if I want to do this one.
  • Houston Heights Fun Run, June 4, 2011: I keep seeing this billed as a very fun, scenic race (although also very fast) amongst trees, which = shade. Which is very important since this is Texas and it’s rather hot here. This is the run I think I really want to do.
  • Women’s Texas Lavender 5K and 10K, June 4, 2011. I found this today and I think I may have been sold by two things: “water stops manned by handsome male servants” and that after the race, there is “breakfast with champagne or mimosas, great music, free massages…” Doesn’t that sound pretty much awesome? Only thing is this one is about a 3 and a half hour drive, we’d have to pay for a hotel plus gas ain’t cheap… it’ll end up being rather costly.

Decisions, decisions.

Step number 3: Get back on track with eating healthy. I quit counting calories a few weeks ago and as soon as I did that, I quit eating properly. Looking at the race pictures that I didn’t publish yesterday made me realize how much more work I have to do to get in the shape I’d like. Eating 2 Kit Kat bars, plus 2 pieces of chocolate cake and ice cream, on top of everything else on Sunday is a bit overkill. I just need to learn to restrain myself from bingeing on foods while still allowing myself to indulge every once in a while. I’m hoping I don’t have to go back to counting calories to do that, it’s no fun.

So that’s what I’m working on. Man that was really boring. Sorry. Having my goals spelled out for me kinda helps to force me to actually stick to them. Hmmm. Maybe I should blog about my budget or something next, heaven knows I need help there!

Race recap… 2011 5k Walk for Lupus NOW & 5k Run

So I did it, I have now run a 5k! How did it go? Did I walk? Will I do another one? Read on to find out more!

The night before I went to bed around 10:30, after laying out all my stuff out in preparation for the big day:


I was hoping to get a good night’s sleep.. unfortunately I did not. Starting past midnight I woke up every hour. I think part of it was nerves, the rest of it was it being really hot in my room, even with the 2 fans going.

After hours of that, I finally decided to get up at 6:30, about 20 minutes before my alarm. Got dressed, ate my oatmeal with raspberries and drank some water. After triple checking that I had everything, we left the house at around 7:15 and got to the aquarium (the starting point) at 7:45. We parked, wandered around the booths and found my friend/running partner. And then posed for some pictures:

P5010025Pretending we’re not nervous.

P5010030 Here goes nothing!

At around 8:20 we made our way to the starting line. There weren’t very many people *running* the course, a lot of people who were there were walking it after us. I think there was just over 200 people running it. The weather was cloudy, but windy.. and humid. Very warm and humid. At 8:30 came the gunshot… and we were off.

I had already known I would have to force myself to go slowly at the beginning and even though I thought we were pretty near the back of the pack, we apparently weren’t since we got passed a lot. What was worse was that the course started with an incline followed by the decline (we were running on a street and this was an overpass) and since it was an out and back run.. we would have to revisit that incline right at the end.

The first mile was rough, and usually the first mile flies by. I think it was just watching the other people fly past me that was frustrating.. and I wasn’t finding a good groove. Right at the first mile marker, my friend stopped to walk so I left her behind.. and I started getting a stitch in my left side. I haven’t had a stitch in a long time so I didn’t know what to do but I just tried to breathe through it and after half a mile it went away, phew.

The most disheartening moment for me came when 2 guys decided they were going to pass me by going around me, one on each side.. and then they high-fived each other right in front of me. Ugh, rude. But… at the turnaround they were walking and I passed them, wishing I had someone to high-five in front of THEM. I never saw them again so :p to those guys.

At the turnaround they had some guys waiting with cups of Vitamin Water, but I just waved them off.. I hadn’t planned on stopping. For the next mile I was mostly running by myself, there were a few people in the distance and I passed a few walkers but nothing exciting. Unfortunately for me I was now running into the wind, which was a struggle.. and the sun tried to peek through the clouds, really warming everything up.

Towards the end I wanted to stop. Really wanted to stop. But I kept telling myself that I wanted to run this thing without stopping, that if I just made it to that spot right ahead then I could walk… then when I got to that point, I would tell myself I could make it a little bit longer. Eventually I could see the ferris wheel marking where the aquarium was so I knew it was nearly over.. and then I got back to the incline near the start. It was rough hitting that right after 3 miles but as soon as I was over it, I could see the finish line. Usually the last .11 of the run is the worst but seeing a finish line motivated me to push myself and I flew towards the finish, pasting on a smile for any cameras:

P5010026 I’m so fast, I’m a blur! :p (Or my mom doesn’t know how to focus a camera.)

running ariLook… I’m actually in front of people!

P5010031It looks like I’m walking or posing. I’m really not!

My final time was… I don’t know exactly. I kind of forgot to look at the clock by the finish line. Oops. According to my iPhone app, my run was 34:35 but I know I started it before the gun went off and I stopped it after I’d already walked to my family and friends. They didn’t do chip timing on this run, they had some other way of recording it so I guess I’ll find out my time later. My dad thinks I was right at 34 minutes, which I think is decent for my first time… my secret goal was under 35 and I know I did that so I’m pretty proud.

After the run, they had bananas and bagels for us to eat, and free ice cream too (I think this made me happier than anything else). I also got a little goody bag of coupons and pamphlets and whatever.  After I finished I felt pretty good, if not hot and tired. My ankle (which was fine all morning and during the run) started hurting as soon as I stopped running but it’s feeling better now. My back started hurting when I got home, not sure what that’s about.

P5010029 Posing by the finish line.. the lady on the right in red made my day, she cheered for me right as I was about to finish.

And there you have it. My first ever “race recap”… it felt so cool doing one since I’ve really enjoyed reading other people’s recaps on their blogs. So, would I run again? I think yes. Definitely yes. There are a few 5ks coming up within the next month or so, I might sign up for one of them. While I thought it was challenging and a good chunk of the time I was questioning WHY I was running this thing, the experience was fun and I really feel like I accomplished something.. something I never thought I could or would be able to accomplish. Plus, I felt good about raising $305 towards the Lupus Foundation… yes, I surpassed my goal. 🙂

I do have to say thank you to everyone who supported me – whether you donated, wished me good luck or told me I could do it: I really appreciate all of you. Thank you so much for everything!

I do need to talk to my parents about taking more/better pictures though. I know I’m running but I’m not THAT fast so I shouldn’t be out of focus in all the pics lol!

First 5k… complete!

First race… finished!

P5010028(I’m the short one in pink.)

Expect more details and a really long recap tomorrow! 🙂

Getting ready for my first 5k!

Look what I picked up yesterday!!

photo 3 Whee!

My first ever race t-shirt and bib. Squee! I can’t believe my first 5k will be this Sunday. 2 days away. Holy crap!

Meanwhile, I’m tired of seeing this in the forecast:

wx forecastI feel like that cloud is laughing at me.

The 30% chance of rain doesn’t make me as nervous as that evil thunderstorm symbol. It’s like it’s waiting to ruin my day. Please please please, if it rains, let it rain AFTER the race is over. Preferably when I’m safe in my car.

I’m feeling *really* nervous because I have no idea what to expect. I don’t know if it’s going to rain or be painfully hot and humid (like last Sunday) or what. I don’t know if the course is going to be flat or hilly, boring or interesting, if there will be people there or not. I don’t know if I can even do it… logically, seeing as how I’ve been running that distance for the last week, I can… but I just doubt myself. I guess I need to do as the bathroom at Luke’s Locker told me:

photo 1 Who knew a restroom could be so wise?!

I guess I know deep down I’ll be okay. Truthfully, I’m kind of excited at the same time too… my first 5k! Who woulda thunk it?!

On a funny note, the guy handing out the shirts and bibs was saying that if we (my runner friend and I) wanted, we could get into the Chevron Marathon through the charity.. since the marathon is based on a lottery and all, but if you raise a certain amount through a charity you can get in that way too. I laughed, as if I could do a marathon! “It’s okay, you can do the half then,” the guy said. Um… dude I’m not quite sure I can even do a 5k!

Meanwhile, there’s still time to donate! I’ve been raising money for the Lupus Foundation and I’m seriously only $15 away from my goal. If you donate, I’ll run that much faster. Maybe. I dunno. I’ve never done this before. Anyway, click to donate, I would really appreciate it! 🙂

By the way, if you have any tips on what to do/not to do… I’m all ears!

Oh and wish me luck and think happy thoughts for me Sunday morning!